sometimes i really wonder do i go to school to study or to join cca... haiz.. im really damn tired.. and i hate the feeling of u noe u have to study, but u cant coz u have a million things to do... and u have to do it!! really... im beginning to regret joining psych soc.. coz vc is beginning to revamp again, and everything will have to go thru me...

u noe how tiring it is to wake up like 7 plus everyday coz u have to go and set up booth and after the whole day, when u juz feel like sleeping, u cant coz u got more admin work to do... haiz... i hate it!! really... i no longer feel like a student.. i dun study.. i juz do com stuff, com stuff and more com stuff.. and when i go back after stall close, i got vc stuff to do...

quit hall and psych soc? i cant!! for one.. vc will hate me for tt if i leave them now.. and psych soc needs me.. i dun think they want to think tt the term biz director is cursed... argh!! but i need some time for myself.. to catch up on my studies, catch up with my long lost frens before they become prehistoric like wad woofie says, and to catch up on my sleep...

my face is like shit now la.. pimples popping everywhere... everyone can see that i am stress even by juz looking at my face.. but den.. i m not stress wif schoolwork... haiz... can someone pls kill me???

haven been blogging for quite some time le.. well.. there's a reason behind it.. coz i have another gmail account tt is used for NUSPsyche.. and im lazy to change back to my own personal account juz to blog.. haha... i admit i am lazy!!

pissed with some ppl.. well.. wad can i say? tt person is irresponsible, dumb, or is it tt he/she is too clever for her own liking? my conclusion is... he/she is oso lazy.. lazy to think... so basically... tt brain is not working at all... so can u blame other non academia things for taking up your time and therefore causing results to be bad??

i do believe that in uni, u have to think.. i admit.. i am lazy to think too!! to the point that i always make ultra bimbo comments about ppl falling into manhole or some other things, but den... at least i bother to think of certain things, like wad behaviour is socially undesirable and might cause ppl to dislike you and im quite sure no one (wif the rite frame of mind) will want that...

okie.. enough of irritants.. my driving lesson was an ultra interesting one.. (as usual) haha... firstly.. i nearly got into a lot of accidents in juz one lesson!! (as usual) haha.. and den.. i went back to the centre ultra late for the first time!! haha... the poor student who is taking over my car.. :p

and u noe wad?? before i even get my license.. i already decided that NO I WILL NOT DRIVE IN FRONT OF TAXIS!! so damn pissed wif irritating taxis who juz cant stop honking for wadeva reason... coz of them.. i am going to look for a machine tt i can put up behind my car so when any of them honks at me in future, i can type in the word "shut up" and it will flash behind!! so cool rite??

haha... im crazy now... forgot to bring my hp charger back.. but im happy, coz i can finally listen to my fav song on com... haha.. i love my lil bro.. i cant believe he actually have that song la... happy!! and to think i really nearly spend 12.90 on a disc juz for this song!! haha... but its really very nice... okie.. i shall go wait for someone to pass me things that he/she is suppose to pass me... haiz... nitez!!

你给的爱带着温度
尤其拥抱时最清楚
心跳传来的起伏
像一颗跳动的暖炉
手放进口袋的温度
融化了走过的路途
冰天雪地的国度
能抱着你就很满足
谁都知道气候会变
更别说诺言
你的冬衣还留在我窗前
你的世界已经准时晴天
远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结
在没有你的夜
给我的爱已经过了期限
而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远
我还是无法结束这冬眠
我的世界乱了季节
赤道居然会飘着雪
热带雨林的原野
看起来白茫茫一片
回忆在我心中积雪
连日出也无法溶解
应该流汗的夏天
可是却一直流眼泪
谁都知道气候会变
更别说诺言
你的冬衣还留在我窗前
你的世界已经准时晴天
远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结
在没有你的夜
给我的爱已经过了期限
而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远
我还是无法结束这冬眠
没有你的夜
你的世界已经准时晴天
远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结
在没有你的夜
给我的爱已经过了期限
而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远
我还是无法结束这冬眠

夏雪 by 飞轮海

my favourite song at this moment.. my heart juz feels heavy when i hear it..

i am such a pig.. haha.. for the past 3 days, i've been sleeping at 8pm and waking up at about 12am only to fall asleep at 2am again and waking up very late!! haha.. juz dunno why im soo tired... this morning i juz wanted to keep sleeping though i noe i can and have to wake up to go for lecture.. :p haha.. and the interesting part is, i can wake up look at msges, think of how to reply them, and go back to sleep without replying them!!!! haha...

for example... eng hooi's msg... i look at them, noe there is sth i need to do for her to draft out a contract for the VC event, den i juz drifted back to sleep... though in the end, after carol msg me i noe that i have to wake up to answer he questions, and soo.. i woke up... and juz yesterday.. i woke up, saw darren's msg, and drifted back to sleep without replying him.. and den this morning when i was about to reply him, i tot it was quite stoopid since i will see him in lecture, so i totally dun reply.. haha...

see... i really think the sleepbug have gotten into my body again... :p and juz the other day, i saw this ad on the train or sth, and it says.. "sleeping is not a disease" ok.. i remember.. it was on the bus.. and i was happy!! im perfectly normal.. is the ppl who dun sleep that are abnormal!! haha... :p but den.. oversleeping is quite abnormal oso rite?? haha... i noe i need 15 hours of sleep per day!! and im happy i finally achieved it last nite!! haha.. 15 hours!!! yippeee! but i guess that would probably be the only time i can achieve it in this sem... *sigh*

tired again.. k.. another 20 mins and i will be in the ramahdan singh lecture... haha... i must stop myself from laughing again!!!!!!!!!! :p gosh.. cant believe i am such a workaholic.. haha... supposed to play maplestory during intro to com lecture, but in the end i spend my time working thru the bazaar proposal.. and hopefully its better... ok.. it will be better!!! but maybe juz by 1%? haha...

like this lyrics a lot.. guess it makes a lot of sense..

回家路上经过了学校
好像没有当年热闹
学过什么大多都忘了
却还记得你的微笑
关于爱情我们都想得太好
总是在伤害中才学会思考
那次分手你曾让我
暂时的依靠
想起来原来你
喜欢我比谁都早
我们曾经说好
爱情多不可靠
所以我们不要
变成情人好不好
我们曾经说好
如果真的遇到
爱上了谁都好
记得要第一时间让我知道
关于爱情我们都想得太好
总是在伤害中才学会思考
那次分手你曾让我
暂时的依靠
想起来原来你
喜欢我比谁都早
我们曾经说好
爱情多不可靠
所以我们不要
变成情人好不好
我们曾经说好
如果真的遇到
爱上了谁都好
记得要第一时间让你知道
想你知道
我们曾经说好
如果真的遇到
爱上了谁都好
记得要第一时间让我知道
如果时间不是往前跑
你在身旁那有多好

bored bored bored...

argh!!! i wish i can go back to my little bed to sleep!! haha.. but i m not complaining.. haha.. im playing maplestory la.. though i still feel i should study a bit.. maybe next time i shudnt bring my lappie out den i will force myself to study!!!!

argh!!have to type a complain letter.. well.. i am suppose to be good in doing so, but somehow i juz cant bring myself to do that... i mean.. i dun hate her that much.. do i? ok.. maybe i do.. but somehow.. something is stopping me... maybe coz it still bothers me that we are staying in the same block.. i mean.. how weird it will be when i see her around? not that i will really bother.. but still... argh!! i hate it.. time to move out of that block and hall... :p

y must all the irritating ppl come from my blk... sianz... k la.. shall go back to playing maple le.. haha... got this feeling i will sleep in lecture again later.. :p

2nd post of today.. haha... my first post was a super unpleasant one.. but den... we shall forget it la... yong yun scared me and ting this morning by insisting that someone said hi to me, but the thing is both of us didnt hear or see anyone... scary... or maybe is juz me... i was too engrossed typing the earlier post... haha... sorry to whoever said hi to me... i didnt mean to dao you...

dunno why my heart is still sinking... weird feeling... i guess is juz too much uncertainties that is ahead that juz scares me... maybe i wouldnt be so depressed if i were to move home and juz be a normal student.. no more cca commitments... my grades might improve... :) but den... i shall leave my last year like that...

super tired.. or should i say sleepy... or maybe is juz that i'm fainting due to the lack of food... juz realised that i've only eaten a few mouthful of beehoon today, and a yoghurt... other den tt were juz drinks.. but i got no appetite to eat... maybe my body is telling me time to stop eating and lose some weight before my fats become uncontrollable... i realised that everytime i feel that im in a bad mood.. i juz simply dun eat or eat a lot a lot of sausages... weird... i guess its time to change this weird habit... anyway, im quite happy wif not eating in school.. save money!!

anyway, i got a new idol!! jiro... not the glay one... (tt one i like long long time ago le..) is the fei lun hai one... he's super cute... ooo.. and the xia xue is super nice!! maybe i might juz buy their cd for this song... since i dun dare to download any songs from internet le... :p k la.. i shall go sleep le... den wake up and try to read something.. nitez ppl..

roar!! im pissed!!! bcoz of you i m concluding that i cant work wif ppl from our block.. no matter whether you have been an active deeblocker or not, but the fact that you belong to block d and are giving me the bulk of my prob make me think that maybe its true!!

fine... you say that we threaten you and coz of us you dun dare to come to school... go and die!! seriously... we threaten you??? no.. you are avoiding us for some damn freaking obvious reason... coz you have not done anything for the society and you have no face to see us... damn.. now i think i m really stoopid to have tried to protect you all the times, thinking of reasons and make ppl believe that you are not that bad afterall, but den all you did is prove me wrong!!

complain to osa, complain to staff advisor.. wad else can you do? ok.. not that i have doubts with your IQ.. but den... i seriously dun think you are that clever to come up with all these... and all these juz prove another point that you are the kind of person that get manipulated damn freaking easily la... fine... continue screwing urself up by believing in your frens... you lose all the frens you make in the society, and you make more enemies... all this for wad? juz coz u trust your fren and listen to them and forge new enemity instead of frenship... damn..

haiz... pissed... i give up on you already... fine.. do wadeva you want... go and be the hermit you want.. and dun let me see you again!!!

yeah!! my lappie is finally recovered!!! haha... super happy now.. today got back my lappie, met a lot of ppl that i haven seen for ages like guozhang, runyan, gen.. basically, all the ppl i met in csc... sigh... heartache again...

saw the email... it hurts... seriously.. i dun mind being the bad guy, but at least i shud have some support rite? instead of me scolding ppl here and the other side someone is trying to tell me to cool down... argh!!! im seriously sick and tired of all these.... which is why i came home... but den... stoopid monkey... sometimes i wish he can juz shut up when i come home and dun be irritating...

ok.. i admit i am easily irritable... but den... he is damn irritating... and really.. i dun need him to be irritating when i am facing a lot of irritants out there le... gosh... i cant imagine myself moving back again... argh!! i may really juz kill him once i move back so that i can maintain a sane mind... which is weird.. if i kill him, ppl might think i am insane.. but... im quite sure if i kill him, i am still sane!! haha... i dunno wad im toking abt le... :p

okie.. time to go download new programmes to my lappie le!! super happy... coz its running very fast now!!

argh!! its been an extremely bad day!! laptop crash, invoice lost, saw somethings and wad can be worse den the stoopid rain that keep raining the whole day?? wth.. do i really have to be that unlucky?

wrong choices.. i regretted... at the moment i step into munchie, seeing the group of csc ppl sitting there, i noe i wud feel that same feeling again... the same feeling of regret... i tot i wud be ok leaving csc for vc... afterall, its almost the same.. but no.. i m soo wrong... well.. i guess the difference between csc and vc is tt ppl in csc are happy doing wad they are doing... but not in vc... we enjoy working with each other most of the time, and we get a sense of satisfaction for every event...

maybe its juz my fault... maybe i shud have choose ppl really passionate about com service... maybe i was too idealistic... but how to see if one is passionate, enthu abt it? ppl come for interview looking enthu but for different reasons... in csc, they juz want to do it... in vc.. they juz want the points!! ok... not for a few... at least im quite sure ivy and haojie are not such ppl... and keith does his job, so im ok with him... other den tt? i dunno... seriously...

i miss being in csc... in front of me, i have the NUSPsyche ppl toking abt psych soc stuff, while i can hear behind, they are happily laughing enjoying their meeting... im seriously very jealous... i noe i could have that if i chose csc over vc.. but i did not...

was it too idealistic of me to try to create a mini family like csc for vc? you noe how much i felt like crying everytime i walk past the clubroom noeing i gave up sth i really enjoy for a com that only have 4 ppl working and the rest giving me a hell load of problems? maybe im juz not cut out to be a leader.. or maybe juz in hall... im tired of constantly telling ppl they have to work... really... maybe im juz used to being in active coms where ppl are passionate about working... and not pushed to do stuff all the time...

time to grow up..

i luv my wu yue tian!! haha... their new cd is nice!!! haha... though is no longer as nice as their previous cds... but... there are still very very nice songs!! like the zui zong yao de xiao shi!! super sweet... i like.. haha... i still have them to keep me happy when im damn pissed... that's their magical power!!! :)

tired... juz 15 mins after stepping in hall, i had my first meeting... haiz... i wun complained... coz i seriously think i do a lot less work as im supposed to do... im juz glad i have a competent vice chair and prog ic... and im juz waiting for the next com evaluation... i guess after the NUSpsyche thrashing out session, it juz make me reevaluate my own com.. i guess its time i bring out the unhappiness i have wif the irritating ppl in there... im sure im not the only one with discontentment... i mean... i do the least work there la...

im not really happy... haiz... i miss home... seriously... no matter how much i hate being near the 2 monkeys, but i feel totally myself... no need to be fake... and i can sleep in peace every night... before 12! yar.. juz my first day back in hall, and im not sleeping!!! haha... i only can say... my room is comfy... seriously... the few days i was at home, i juz simply dun feel like going out at all... apart from my financial difficulties (i am in a $500 deficit) and trying very hard to save up so tt i will cover tt deficit.. so ppl.. not tt i dun want to go out wif u al.. but i am real broke! so i really cant afford to live the lifestyle i use to lead... no more going out and eat expensive stuff... and i feel the need to jian fei... coz i really put on so much weight tt i dun even noe myself le... ok.. tt is kua zhang.. but yar.. i at fat now... no longer cute (as runyan put it)..

haiz... go sleep le.. im really tired...

realised i haven been blogging for a super long time already... haha... well.. i've been busy playing maplestory, fatal frame 3 and oso slacking!! haha... but den again.. everyday is soo busy that i dun even have time to think of anything else... :) i love it.. though i think bday parties have a lil curse on me... haha.. so i will not attend anyone's bday party again... haha...

now when i think back abt it.. i really didnt have any time to rest la!! 29th went back to celebrate jeannie's bday, 30th celebrated jeannie's bday at bugis, 31st went to kaiwen's bday party, 1st family gathering at my place, 2nd psych soc meeting, 3rd to 4th psych soc chalet!!! haha... my remaining hols are juz gone like tt!! but its a fun day everyday!! haha...

well... my new year resolution is to get cap 5 this sem!!! so tt my cap will be pulled up!!! and den... to finally be able to jian fei and save a bit of my face, coz i think my face looks disgusting now with all the pimple scars!! haha... and sleep early so i will have less pimple coming out!! haha...

my last sem in hall... time to leave tt place and come home le... though i will miss all the times, but den i think i will be able to sleep early at home!! and hopefully have a bit more money to spend!! haha... and more time with my frens which i have neglected for soo damn long... haha.. ok.. enough le.. i got to go pack my stuff for chalet!! haha.... cya ppl soon!!

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